aEvery day I wake up and the world is beautiful. But every day I learn of some new atrocity happening to women. I don't want to shut off the news because then I may forget about those around me and do nothing. I may go on with my day thinking that things will be better tomorrow when the truth is, nothing happens without action.

It is none of your god damn fucking business if I have an abortion. If you don't believe in science, that's not my fucking problem. I would never ever murder anyone. I have a conscience. I would never harm anyone with the intent to harm them. I am a moral and good person. I'm also an intelligent person. I'm also a woman. I can make my own decisions and I can also accept advice if someone wants to give it. I am not a fucking toy, or a doll, or property. No woman is. You enslave women by making rules for just them. They may not be proper slaves yet because the process is just beginning, but since we never really had full equality we are already have way there. We are not allowed to ask for raises in our jobs even though we get paid less. We are not allowed to where clothing that might cause someone to get all rapey. We do not get jobs as easily as men. We cannot make decisions about our own health.

For my whole life I have felt like I was guilty of something, but I realize now that I'm guilty of having a Catholic background in my family and being a woman. I'm guilty of being born. Of existing and wanting to exist and wanting to think for myself.

I'm sick of people making decisions for me when I am smart enough to make my own. Everyone makes mistakes. My mistakes should not be made by someone else, nor should I not be allowed to make those mistakes. I am not a man but men should respect me. I respect men who respect me.

I don't want to raise a daughter in this world where women are treated like cattle in even the best of societies. Even the freest of societies we are told to where certain clothes or we will be the cause of anything that comes our way. Not only is this demeaning to all men by saying that they have no control over themselves, that they are simply animals with no senses and no humanity, but this is disgusting to me because I believe we should not have shame about our bodies. There is nothing about a womans body that truly makes a man rape her. There is nothing to be ashamed of, but because of growing up in this world I am ashamed of so much of myself. I should not feel this way. I am disgusted by every single person who has ever made a woman feel bad about herself. I am disgusted with this society's treatment of women. I am disgusted with this society's treatment of non-white people. And of course, disgusted with the treatment of black women in our country.

I know that it's hard to empathize sometimes when you have never, and could never, experience what it's like to be another person in actuality, but it's not that hard to treat people nicely regardless. It's so easy to be nice to people and to treat them as if they were no whatever difference you perceive them to be. Difference is good, but treating every difference with respect is so easy I cannot believe how many people apparently have a hard time with this.

It's sunny out today, so I am going to go outside and feel the sun warming my skin. I'm going to be happy with myself and with my life and my baby. I'm going to do everything the best that I can do it, and treat people with all of the respect that I truly have for them. I will work on my own respect for myself, trying to build that up after it's been systematically destroyed by our culture or sexism and racism and capitalism.  I am going to work on being less materialistic.  I am going to try to be a better person.  I am also going to look into ways that I can help prevent or even reverse these horrific laws against women and I am going to enjoy doing this.  I am going to be happy knowing that I am doing what I can to help.  I am going to work towards one day being so happy that I cannot help but make others happy.  

So, today is a good day.